The wording the Buzz I use to think was fun and I truly thought that I loved gambling.

Just want to be normal, but then normal seems so boring☹️ Have managed to stay off before but was replaced by another buzz addiction of having an affair. Am away next weekend playing golf, have paid for it but spent everything else so zero spending money, just want to stop, have tried before and was told take up running/meditation etc there ain’t no buzz in that. 5k on credit card in 2 days, 4K wages in a few hours and am now leaving less and less to get through living, have not brought clothes in ages been away on holiday.

I have a well paid job and still pay mortgage,bills as I should but everything else I waste on online fruit machines. I have got worse over the last 6 months and a lot worse last few weeks. I know it is still gambling but feel in control of that, online fruit machines are a different matter. Have such a bad addiction to online fruit machines have been gambling for years with no bad problem, the odd couple of hundred at casino on night out couple of times a year the odd lottery ticket, £20 on game of golf that sort of thing.

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